Last night we rented Al Gore's movie An Inconvenient Truth. Well, he did his job if scaring the crap out of us was his intention. No, seriously; he makes his point... but it really didn't need to take almost 2 hours. I'll be honest; I fell asleep after 90 minutes. Really I did try to stay interested for the sake of appearing politically correct but gol dang I'm a pretty quick study and I GET THE POINT! We're screwing up our planet. Big time. Early on in the movie he expresses his belief that some kind of divine intervention caused that whole 'hanging chad' fiasco, so that he would not win the presidency, so that he could continue his campaign to educate us; the public; who are ruining our planet. Works for me. I've so far never had an experience where I didn't get to look back at some point and say, "Oh THAT'S why that happened." I had a big one recently:
I have always believed strongly that most every relationship has a timeline. A few relationships last 'forever', but more often they just end. Nobody can specifically state it was someone's fault or something in particular happened. It's just over. Still--it can be confusing as hell to the party that didn't make the choice to leave. I had a couple of major significant relationships before relocating to Eureka 12 years ago. They both seemed to be absolutely crazy about me. Packed up all my crap and me and my two children and moved us to wherever it was they needed to live. Both times, within one year, it was OVER. And in both cases I've wondered (up until very recently) what in the world happened?! I didn't change. Why didn't it last? I've come to believe that some higher power, maybe my personal guardian angel, maybe God, brought them to me because I needed them at the time. In each case they got me to my next step, and every step took me further than I'd have ever thought I would go before meeting them. Becoming a licensed hospital administrator. Buying my own supercool house before the age of 40 (By my SELF, I might add). Moving up here and John being the first person I met was worth it all alone. I mentioned a few days ago that I've spent the past six months in a pretty deep sadness over the loss of a great girlfriend earlier this year. We met on the internet and boy we just clicked for over a year. I'd have bet all my money that we were friends for life. I flew out to visit her and her family in the midwest on three separate occasions. I'd even instructed my children that in the event of my death she was to be called to come deal with this overwhelming studio full of STUFF. Well, long story short she up and decided we were no longer a good fit. I'm telling you; it tore me up way more than any of my guy relationships had. I hadn't had that 'forever' belief about anyone before. My point is, while it took a while to get here, I recently recognized why the universe sent her to me when it did. In many little ways she enhanced my life, but most importantly she changed my grandson Caleb's life. She'd gotten a couple years of pre-med studies under her belt before staying home to raise a family, and was just really bright in general so was able to correctly diagnose two different things that really up until that time had controlled Caleb's life (and ours). Stuff it would've taken Dr's a few more years to figure out. Astounding. Life changing. Yes, she changed our lives. And then it was over. I may never understand why we couldn't remain friends, but now that I see my time knowing her had a purpose I can let it go. I feel better already. I hope my telling of this very personal incident may help someone who happens to pass by today. :-)
